January 9, 2022

I’m sorry, but I don’t think I can tell you this in person as I had planned. When you held me last night as tears fell from my eyes, something was unlocked inside of me that I was only able to recognize later. The Pandora’s box that you unlocked with your embrace is now open and the truth that I love you is now out in the world.

I’ve been in this emotional space before. I can recognize the color of its walls, the feel of the floor underneath my feet, the way the most beautiful light dances around the room. As tempting as it may be to hide this truth away in a place you’ll never find it, I can’t because of a promise I made to myself ten years ago.

So there you have it. I know you don’t feel the same, but if I am to live with myself I had to tell you. I don’t know what this revelation will to do our friendship. Frankly, I am terrified to find out. Truly, you mean the world to me and you are the closet thing I have in this world to family. It is my hope that somehow we can remain good friends.

Sincerely,

Jacqueline